Holding On To Smoke Chords

     Cm               Ab
I'm tired of feeling comatose
      Cm                  Ab
I've lost the me that I loved most
     Cm               Ab
I'm barely holding on to smoke
     Cm               Ab
I'm barely holding on to smoke
 
Cm Ab Cm Ab Cm Ab Bb
 
[Verse 1]
 Cm
I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
 
Why do I do this to myself on repeat?
Ab
So disconnected from my own reality
 
Am I man or machine?
      Cm
If I give, will you take?
 
As I lie for the taste
           Ab
I just fuck it up
             Cm Bb
As you lap it up
 Ab
                   F
Through flesh and bone
       Bb Ab
I walk alone
 
                  Fm
If I run, will I fade away?
    Cm                         Bb
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind
 
 
[Chorus]
            Cm            Ab
In all my pride, all my shame
          Cm            Ab
I find strength enough to show you
       Cm               Ab
I may bend but I won't break
           Bb
Because I define who I
              Bb
Define who I become
 
[Verse 2]
   Cm
I miss the me that I have not met
 
Choking in silence on the words left unsaid
   Ab
I feel a sickness for a home I've never been
 
And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red
    Cm
I built a shelter in complacency
                                                  Ab
Locked myself in and set fire and threw away the key
 
Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die
 
So am I living or am I just alive?
 
[Chorus]
         Cm            Ab
All my pride, all my shame
          Cm           Ab
I find strength enough to show you
       Cm         Ab
I may bend but I won't break
     Bb
I define who I become
            Cm               Ab
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
      Cm                       Ab
I've lost the me that I loved most
     Cm               Ab
I'm barely holding on to smoke
         Bb
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
 
[Breakdown]
    Cm
Broken, I'm holding on
                    Bb Cm
Driven to right the wrong
            Ab                   Eb    Bb
Silent, connected yet I feel so separated
  Cm
Fallen through flesh and bone
                 Bb Cm
Frozen, I stand alone
                          Bb
Deafened in silence, the voice remains
 
[Bridge]
          Cm                Ab
Behind my eyes, beneath my rage
          Cm               Ab
I was struggling to get through
        Cm              Ab
Out of time and out of faith
 
I define who I become
 
[Chorus]
            Cm            Ab
In all my pride, all my shame
          Cm           Ab
I find strength enough to show you
       Cm         Ab
I may bend but I won't break
          Bb
'Cause I define who I
              Cm
Define who I become
     Cm                Ab
I'm tired of feeling comatose
   Cm                 Ab
I lost the me that I loved most
     Cm               Ab
I'm barely holding on to smoke
         Bb
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
     Cm             Ab
I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb
 Cm                    Ab
Waiting for the holy ghost to come
    Cm                        Ab
So save me from the webs that I have spun
    Bb                 ~
I'm holding on, holding on
                                Cm
I'm holding on, holding on to smoke
 
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